Saturday, July 9, 2011

One Of Those Days

Do you ever wake up with your stomach all in knots but you have absolutely no idea why?  I woke up that way this morning and after thinking about it for a while, I figured out that it was probably because I went to therapy yesterday.  Yes, I'm in therapy, so if you're crazy, I'm sure we will be great friends!  Yeah, I also use humor as a sword because if I didn't laugh about things, I would probably go insane.  I'm trying to be more open about who I am, even though that is difficult at times.  As you can see, I have no trouble giving my opinions on products and stuff, but I have a hard time letting people in.  I'm desperately trying to improve myself because I want to be the best person that I possibly can be.  I know that I will never be perfect but that doesn't mean that I can't try to better each and every day. 

I would really like to get to know my readers better too and it's kind of hard to get to know someone if you don't let them know you.  I have a tendency to ramble, so if that happens, feel free to leave a comment telling me about it:)  So, anyway, I suffer from depression and have realized that over the years, I have built up this wall because I'm terrified of getting hurt.  If you ask me, one of the hardest things to do is let people see your vulnerability, so I have tried desperately to keep mine a secret.  Luckily though, I met this amazing man who I've been married to for over four years now and he has really helped me with my struggles.  He's patient, loving and truly wants the best for me.  He's helped me a lot and without him and the amazing support of my family, I don't know where I would be today. 

Is there someone in your life that has made you want to become a better person?

1 comment:

  1. My son - Jordan. I want to become the best mom in the world to him.